John Newton's Letters
Difference between acquired and
I shall embrace your permission to fill my paper. As to the subject,
that which has been a frequent theme of my heart of late—I shall venture to
lay before you; I mean, the remarkable and humbling difference which
I suppose all who know themselves may observe, between their acquired and
their experimental knowledge. In other words, the difference between their
judgment and their practice. To hear a believer speak his
apprehensions of the evil of sin, the vanity of the world, the love of
Christ, the beauty of holiness, or the importance of eternity—who would not
suppose him to be armored against temptation? To hear with what strong
arguments he can recommend watchfulness, prayer, forbearance, and
submission, when he is teaching or advising others—who would not suppose but
he could also teach himself, and influence his own conduct! Yet, alas! The
person who rose from his knees before he left his chamber—as a poor,
indigent, fallible, dependent creature, who saw and acknowledged that he was
unworthy to breathe the air or too see the light—may meet with many
occasions, before the day is closed, to discover the corruptions of his
heart, and to manifest how weak and faint his best principles and
clearest convictions are, in their actual exercise!
And in this view—how vain is man! what a contradiction
is a believer to himself! He is called a Believer emphatically,
because he cordially assents to the Word of God; but, alas! how often
unworthy of the name!
If I were to describe him from the Scriptural portrait—I
would say that he is one whose heart is athirst for God, for His glory, and
for His presence; that his affections are fixed upon an unseen Savior; that
his treasures, and consequently his thoughts, are on eternal realities, far
beyond the bounds of sense. Having experienced much God's forgiveness, he is
full of mercy and forgiveness to all around. Having been often deceived by
his own heart, he dares trust it no more—but lives by faith in the Son of
God, for wisdom, righteousness, and sanctification, and derives from Him
grace upon grace; sensible that without Him he has not sufficiency even to
think a good thought! In short—he is dead to the world, to sin, to self; but
alive to God, and lively in His service. Prayer is his breath, the Word of
God his food, and the ordinances more precious to him than the light of the
sun. Such is a believer—in his judgment and prevailing desires.
But was I to describe him from his actual experience,
especially at some times—how different would the picture be! Though he knows
that communion with God is his highest privilege, he too seldom finds it so;
on the contrary, if duty, conscience, and necessity did not compel him—he
would leave the throne of grace unvisited from day to day! He takes up the
Bible, conscious that it is the fountain of life and true comfort; yet
perhaps, while he is making the reflection, he feels a secret distaste,
which prompts him to lay it down, and give his preference to a newspaper! He
needs not to be told of the vanity and uncertainty of the world, and all
beneath the sun; and yet is almost as much elated or cast down by a
trifle—as those who have their only portion in this world! He believes that
all things shall work together for his good, and that the most high God
appoints, adjusts, and overrules all his concerns; yet he feels the risings
of fear, anxiety, and displeasure, as though the contrary was true! He owns
himself to be ignorant, and liable to be deceived by a thousand fallacies;
yet he is easily betrayed into flattering views of himself, and
self-conceit! He feels himself to be an unprofitable, unfaithful, unthankful
servant, and therefore blushes to harbor a thought of desiring the esteem
and commendations of men—yet he cannot suppress it! Finally (for I must
observe some bounds), on account of these and many other inconsistencies, he
is struck dumb before the Lord, stripped of every hope and plea, but what is
provided in the free grace of God—and yet his heart is continually leaning
and returning to a covenant of works.
Two questions naturally arise from such a view of
First: How can these things be—or why are they permitted?
Since the Lord hates sin, teaches his people to hate it and cry against it,
and has promised to hear their prayers—how is it that they go thus burdened
by sin? Surely, if he could not, or would not, over-rule evil for good—he
would not permit it to continue. By these exercises of sin and grace, the
Lord teaches us more truly to know and feel the utter depravity and
corruption of our whole nature, that we are indeed defiled in every part!
His method of salvation is likewise hereby exceedingly endeared to
us! We see that it is and must be of grace, wholly of grace; and that the
Lord Jesus Christ, and his perfect righteousness, is and must be our all in
God's power likewise, in maintaining his own work
notwithstanding our infirmities, temptations, and enemies, is hereby
displayed in the clearest light; his strength is manifested in our weakness!
Satan likewise is more remarkably disappointed and
put to shame, when he finds bounds set to his rage and wiles, beyond which
he cannot pass; and that those in whom he finds so much evil to work upon,
and over whom he so often prevails for a season—escape at last out of his
hands! He casts them down—but they are raised again! He wounds them—but they
are healed! He obtains his desire to sift them as wheat—but the prayer of
their great Advocate prevails for the maintenance of their faith.
Farther, by what believers feel in themselves—they learn
by degrees how to warn, pity, and bear with others. A soft, patient, and
compassionate spirit, and a readiness and skill in comforting those who are
cast down, is not perhaps attainable in any other way.
And, lastly, I believe that nothing more habitually
reconciles a child of God to the thought of death, than the wearisomeness of
this warfare with sin and temptation. Death is unwelcome to human nature.
But the Christian knows that not until death—will conflict cease! Then we
shall sin no more. The flesh, with all its attendant evils, will be laid in
the grave. Then the soul, which has been partaker of a new and heavenly
birth, shall be freed from every encumbrance, and stand perfect in the
Redeemer's righteousness before God in eternal glory!
But though these evils cannot be wholly removed, it is
worth while to inquire, Secondly, How they may be mitigated? This we
are encouraged to hope for. The Word of God directs and animates to a growth
in grace—and though we can do nothing spiritually of ourselves—yet there is
a part assigned us. We cannot conquer the obstacles in our way by our
own strength; yet we can give way to them; and if we do, it is our
sin—and will be our sorrow.
The disputes concerning inherent power in the creature,
have been carried to inconvenient lengths; for my own part, I think it safe
to use Scriptural language. The Apostles exhort us to give all diligence—to
resist the devil; to purge ourselves from all filthiness of flesh and
spirit; to give ourselves to reading, meditation, and prayer; to watch; to
put on the whole armor of God; and to abstain from all appearance of evil.
Faithfulness to light received, and a sincere endeavor to conform to
the means prescribed in the Word of God, with a humble application to the
Blood of sprinkling and the promised Holy Spirit, will undoubtedly be
answered by increasing measures of light, faith, strength, and comfort. We
shall know—if we follow on to know the Lord.