With the rope around my neck!

Joseph Alleine, "A Soliloquy of an Unregenerate Sinner"

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What misery have my sins brought upon me! Oh, what a miserable state I am in! A slave of sin and Satan, cast out of God's favor, accursed by His omnipotent justice, cursed in my body, cursed in my soul, cursed in all that I have. My sins are unpardoned, and my soul is within a step of death, and then damnation!

Alas! What shall I do?

Where shall I go?

Which way shall I look?

God is frowning on me from above,
Hell is gaping for me from beneath,
conscience is smiting me from within,
temptations and dangers are surrounding me.

Oh, where shall I flee?

What place can hide me from Omniscience?

What power can deliver me from Omnipotence?

Alas, what shall I do?

Shall I go on in my sinful ways? Why then, certain damnation will be my end!

Shall I be so besotted and mad as to go and sell my soul to the eternal flames, for a little ale or a little ease; for a little pleasure, or gain, or comfort to my flesh?

Shall I linger any longer in this wretched state? No, If I tarry here I shall be miserable forever!

What then, is there no help?

Is there no hope?

Is there any remedy for such woeful misery?

Is there any mercy after such provoking iniquity?

"Lord Jesus, I come to You with the rope around my neck! I am worthy to die and to be damned. Take me for Yourself forever. I give myself to You. I come to You, as the only way to the Father, as the only Mediator. I have destroyed myself--but in You is my help. Save me Lord--or else I must perish!
"Too long have I served the world, and the lusts of my flesh, and Satan; but now I renounce them all, and commit myself to be ruled by the dictates and directions of Your Word, and guided by its counsel."

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