MY BROTHER'S KEEPER
Letters from James Alexander (1804-1859)
to his younger brother, on the virtues and
vices, the duties and dangers of youth.
False Shame
My dear brother,
Long ago I read in one of Miss Edgeworth's tales, a maxim which has remained
in my memory ever since. It was to this effect—No one will ever become
great, who is afraid of being laughed at. Now I do not wish you to seek
after the empty and false greatness of this world. Ambition of this kind is
contrary to the mind of Christ. But I desire you to have true greatness,
virtuous independence, frankness, generosity, firmness, and decision of
character.
It is not necessary for me to spend time in proving to
you that the evil of which I speak is very common. Look around among your
acquaintances, and you will see many who are more afraid of ridicule than
they are of pain. I knew a remarkable instance of this fault. Lucius
was a playmate of mine at school, and a very intimate friend. He was a lad
of genius and of many good qualities—but the fear of ridicule was ruinous to
him. It spoiled almost all his fine traits. There was nothing so terrible to
him as a laugh. At any time he would have chosen a whipping rather than a
sneer from his school-mates. He therefore was led to do many wrong things,
and kept from doing many right things, by his false shame. Lucius did not
stop to ask whether any particular thing was right or wrong in the sight of
God; the first question in his mind was—What will people think of it?
The effect of this weakness was soon manifested, and it
showed itself in some ways which were really ridiculous. For example, Lucius
became so fully possessed of the idea that everybody was looking at him, and
criticizing him, that whenever he walked the streets his whole appearance
was affected by it. If he got a new coat, or hat, he was in misery, lest
they should draw attention to it. On a certain occasion, I have even known
him to walk through a puddle of water in order to conceal the gloss of a new
pair of boots. The same foolish pride made him refuse the most useful
articles of clothing, if they were a little uncommon. He seemed to imagine
that he was an object of universal attention, and was a mere slave to the
opinions of others.
Lucius was soon rendered very unhappy; for it was not
long before the boys discovered his reigning foible. They took pleasure in
laughing at his clothes, his features, his tone, his walk, and almost
everything which he said or did. Poor Lucius could not keep control under
their wicked attacks; and sometimes his eyes would fill with tears of
mortification. This temper grew up with him, and the consequence is, that he
is a poor, feeble, undecided, wavering fellow, who is afraid to take his
course with a manly firmness, and must learn the opinion of everyone around
him, before he ventures upon any proceeding.
This ridiculous pride, or false shame, is something more
than a mere laughable peculiarity. It produces real misery, both to the
subject of it and to others. Thus many people are kept from seeking the
favor of God—by fear of being ridiculed. In like manner, many neglect the
duty of professing Christ before men, for the same cause. One young man is
ashamed to become a Sunday-school teacher; people will take notice of it,
and he will be laughed at! Another young man is afraid to admit that he has
pious feelings, or say a word to his ungodly companions, lest they should
scoff at him. Thus God is dishonored, and souls are lost.
Read the histories of great men, and you will see how
different were their feelings. If John Howard had regarded those who used to
call him "Mad Jack Howard," we never would have heard of his benevolent
deeds. Or to go further back, if Columbus had been afraid of ridicule,
America might not have been discovered.
Cultivate the habit of doing what is right, come what
will. Be firm, be manly; have right opinions, and hold them fast. The
dread of idle laughter is the basest sort of cowardice. Begin at once to
overcome it. Especially in matters of duty and piety, beware how you allow
the fear of man to ensnare you. I have known young men who would rather be
detected in lying or swearing, than let it be known that they had retired
for private devotion. And I have seen boys who would shut their Bible in the
twinkling of an eye, and pretend to be doing something else, if any one came
into the room where they were reading. How base, how foolish, how wicked, is
such a disposition! Scorn to be guilty of this baseness of mind.
A proper regard for the opinion of others is surely
desirable; but as a rational, an accountable, an immortal being, do not
allow yourself to be in servitude to other minds. Above all, do not submit
to the paltry laughter of those who are perhaps far inferior in judgment to
yourself.
I repeat it, then, begin at once to conquer this failing,
if you are conscious of it in any degree. Do what you believe to be
right, in all cases—do it at once—and at all risks. Suppose idle,
foolish, or wicked people laugh at you. What then? Does their laughter
injure you? Or will their good opinion repay you for the loss of a good
conscience? Is not the praise of God better than the praise of man? You may
depend upon it as an undoubted truth, that the very way to avoid
mortification is to despise ignorant ridicule; and the very way to be
constantly on the rack of confusion and injured vanity is, to yield to the
scoffing of the unwise. And in the things of religion, to be governed by
fear of shame is not only foolish—but impious. It is nothing less than
preferring man to God! Remember the words of Christ—"Whoever shall be
ashamed of me and my words, of him shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he
shall come in his own glory, and in his Father's, and of the holy angels."
Farewell.
Your affectionate brother,
James