How will this look — when I am dying?
(J. R. Miller, "Miller's Year Book — a Year's Daily Readings")
"Now Elisha was suffering from the illness from which he died." 2 Kings 13:14
A death-bed is a good place from which to look at one's past life. In the strange, dim light that pours in from eternity — things do not appear as they did in the common sunlight. Many things that gave pleasure as life went on — now give pain and shame in the retrospect, and appear calamitous. This is true of all sins and follies, of all gains and pleasures that did not have God's blessing — of all things done for SELF and not for Christ, of all quarrels and strifes.
Many things also that seemed hard when they came, and that cost pain and self-denial — in the light of the death-chamber, now appear radiant and beautiful. Thus the dying hour is the place to test life. If we would always ask, before doing any doubtful thing, "How will this look — when I am dying?" it would save us from many a mistake and sin!
"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil." Ecclesiastes 12:13-14