I am growing worse every day!
(Archibald Alexander, "Practical Directions How
to Grow in Grace and Make Progress in Piety")
One circumstance attends the growth in grace of
a real Christian, is the clearer and deeper insight
which he obtains into the evils of his own heart.
Now this is one of the best evidences of growth.
But his first conclusion is apt to be, "I am growing
worse every day! I see innumerable evils
up within me which I never saw before!"
This person may be compared to one shut up in a dark
room where he is surrounded by many loathsome objects.
If a single ray of light be let into the room, he sees
the more prominent objects. But if the light gradually
increases, he sees more and more of the filth by
which he has been surrounded. It was there before,
but he did not perceive it.